tried to buy some honey for my tea from wikipedia but they were sold out

Life has been going pretty smoothly for the last month.

Pretty much all my time is spent working on Zip, which is what I want!

And, all the other time is spent on either watching anime or running lol.

In terms of running, been running 4-5 miles per day, 6 days a week pretty consistently now for a month. I up my distance +0.05 miles every run. It’s been brutal lol. When you’re 2 miles into a 4.5 mile run and everything hurts and you just want to walk it really does take a ton of mental strength to be like “no way, going to finish this”. I don’t have the mental strength naturally. And, that’s why I run! I want to build it. It’s like this really interesting single-player battle with yourself. And, when you win the battle it feels pretty dope.

In terms of anime, been watching Haikyu!! It’s about this kid name Shoyo who wants to become a great volleyball player and his ups-and-downs on his journey there.

One scene from a recent episode hit me pretty hard.

After losing a big tournament, Shoyu’s entire team is in shambles emotionally. They’re just quiet and lost in their thoughts of failure. Later, Shoyu and one of his teammates, Kageyama, head to the volleyball court and start practicing again. Quietly. But, their internal frustration with themselves is ridiculous and both just start screaming like crazy people and running around the court for like 5 minutes. I could only find the dubbed scene on YT but check it out:

The scene is ridiculous. But, I guess it hit me pretty hard because I’ve literally done exactly what the characters are doing here many many many times lol.

Sometimes, you’re just disappointed in yourself and it’s hard to get past it. Whatever it is, wallowing in defeat isn’t the way. Just gotta scream, let it out, move on, continue working on the next move :).